The waiting process

My life is right now like a waiting process:
I wait for my home to get more like a home.
I wait for when to do surgery on my legs.
I wait for all those good moments(love).
I wait for to throw away my jacket and gloves.
I wait for when to know what to buy to my home.
That is just some of the waiting.
Meanwhile I try to live here and now....catch every second of life that never come back.
Everytime you breathe, you will never breathe that moment again...but you can keep the moment inside of you, remember the moment and make it living again.
It's often easy to say I'm going to live here and now. But we tend to always look at the clock for some reason. It's not always that we want to look at the clock. But life today forces us to do things we might not want to do. You can get stressed by sitting in a empty room hearing a clock just tick, doing nothing.
But for me that is a relaxing time if I can do that and noone wants or need my attention.
I just wish that was more often....I try to make space more often for that....but at same time that wouldn't be me....so maybe this is the reason I was born Gemini....2 souls in 1 body...:)

OH WAIT...I wait for my domain to be free for me again!!

and I still don't know what to do when I grow up...if ever.....