The truth about RSD/CRPS in other words....

I have a place that's all mine


where I'm the princess cool

where the golden magic shine

there's no place for a fool



You took a bite of my heart

but you never got my soul

I know you well from start

you were not prince the cool



I leave you on my doorstep

you were not my right man

you seemed to be the love

but you were not my fan



I love my prince the heat

he will always be mine

he will me better treat

he is my hot sunshine

My fears

The soul of my sun is tickling in your eyes


Always have I run in the darkness of lies



The ego inside of me was woken up by a fire

When my heart stop beat like a broken wire



I knew he was like a glittering glue to me

I just found the miracle in the love to be



Sadness was now covering me with inner fears

Disaster is letting them grow into big tears



Life is more precious for me then before

I must live and what life give me adore



Never give in and never give up I must fight

I must get back, get up and make heart light

What keeps us going....

Yesterday was one of those days when I realized, even if you are a good friend and a good familymember sometimes you just crasch and feel you have had enough. I took a break from everything and didn't do more then I needed, took some naps during the day...and you know what just because I let myself just be...today is another fresh day and I feel like a new human being.
Often we keep pushing and keep forgetting ourselves. Of course we are a part of the World a part of the Universe, but we are also ourselves and all unique with needs of our owns and to get our own needs is not being selfish. To be able be there for others we all needs energy that comes from inside of ourselves.
I get my energy from all the beautiful people that I have in my life. This is some words that I wrote some years ago....now it's time to finish this one and make it fulfilled:

WHY DO I CRY
LONELINESS-I WOULD DIE
FRIENDS SURROUNDED
NOT ABANDONED-I AM ALIVE!

Back again

After a long time being away from writing any but notes that I have saved, I have decided now is time to start writing more seriously. I have so much on my mind and so much I need to let out. I have truly discovered that coming up in my age being soon 46 is just another story then being 20 when it comes to relations. Some days there is frustrations just cause of that, other days the mind doesn't notice what was so hard the day before. But I do believe that inside of us the lust and the passion for having someone in life to share life with is just the same no matter age. Maybe we tend to get more careful with our hearts with age, just because life has taught us that broken hearts is not anything we want to have. And being reminded how much love can hurt makes us more careful in all we do. Sometimes maybe too careful. Love is just like everything else in life, if we stop follow what we want just out of being careful of our hearts, then maybe we miss what would be the biggest dream come true. Never stop following your dreams. It's only you who can make them become true. If you don't have the passion and the commitment, noone else will believe in you and do the hard work for you. That goes both for love, work, interests or whatever you dream about.
Take chances sometimes and step off the safe zone a while.
This is some words I wrote about love a couple of years ago:


A distance between souls, a gap, big, big holes


Relations that comes, beat,strikes and goes

Jupiter and Mars, man and woman that laughs

We are united forever in love, we are free souls depending on how

Love treat us bad and good, but stays in our hearts forever as should



Soul passion, soul lovers a reason to get together

United as one in love, separated as twice hurts dove

Soul passion, soul lovers we are one forever

Let's give our hope to love of united loving hearts



Love, love come on, come to me

Love, love hold on stay just to be

Love, love is a passion for us all

Conquer the soul and strike wall



Soul of me, soul of you

Soul of hearts, soul of two.

United forever in love



When love comes you hit a precious part

Never forget reach out and get the heart

Make love and let love come like love do

Hold on, feel and show that part of you

Cause love is all we need to make a pair of two



Soul of me, soul of you

Soul of hearts, soul of two

Forever and ever in love